Finding self-control

D and I have been so busy this summer. We've been trying to organize and clean our house, work out, cook healthy meals, etc...basically living a real adult life. It's been pretty awesome, especially seeing how successful we can be when we put our minds to it. It's time consuming though, which is why we haven't had the chance to write in forever. We're visiting family again (impromptu visit to do wedding things) and for once have miraculously stayed on track with our diet AND exercise even with all the things we have to do while we're here. Seeing results after a week has really been motivating. Yoga is my new favorite thing. I'm baffled but so so happy. I feel like we're really getting the hang of this lifestyle and things are going so well! We have been tweaking everything slightly to see what works best for us, and we're finding that we're both stronger people because of this dynamic. It's awesome.

BUT THEN today happened. All of our plans went out the window because I'm sick. Since I haven't left the house yet and decided to lay low today, I wanted one day to enjoy the beach (it is absolutely GORGEOUS out today...perfect beach day). But I can't move. So nothing is getting done and I'm also miserable. I took my bike out for a 15 mile ride the other day. Where did that girl go?


I've never been bedded by cramps before...now I feel bad for belittling my friends in high school when they stayed home from school. I feel guilty though, for not exercising. Even though I know I have the right to be sick and relax, I'm truly committed to the changes I've made thus far. It feels good. I've made rules for myself and stuck to them. I tried not to make exceptions to those rules because it has not worked out so well for me in the past. For example, if I resolved to not buy ANY clothes for the entire month (I have a little shopping habit. Just very small though....really. I'm serious. SMALL. DON'T TELL ME I HAVE A PROBLEM.) because I want to save money for [item, event, etc] and then I say,  "I'm going to the mall! But don't worry, I'm just gonna window shop....," NO. laerie, you are not gonna window shop. Girl, you will be coming home with at least 3 bags, crying and telling D, "I don't (sob) know what ha-happened!!" SO. I've been proud of myself. I've not been tempting myself or making exceptions ("Well, I'll just buy those cute moonstone earrings. They're only $40...") I've already been to the west coast and I'm going to NYC in August, so I really need to save. I didn't buy the earrings. Hooray for exercising self-control!!!