Battle not won

I am a warrior.

I've been walked on my entire life because I'm a submissive female. I'd just lie down and take any shit that people felt like flinging at me. Well, not anymore.

Many people think that "submissive" is synonymous with "doormat". I say, FUCK THAT. I'm not letting it happen anymore. I'm channeling my inner B (does not stand for "bitch", but actually stands for D's mother, who is the strongest gets-what-she-wants-and-gets-it-now woman I know) and DEMAND TO BE TAKEN SERIOUSLY -_-

I had a little problem with one of my chain store credit cards. Since the company insisted I move to paperless statements, which I was all for being a greenie, all while sending me 500 fucking promotional emails every day, my e-statement got lost in the fray and I was late for my payment. When I got a little reprimand in the mail, I immediately called to get my late fee removed (step, bitch) and made the full payment online.  

WELL, these people have been harassing my parents for the last week and a half (their home number was on the account because I signed up for it when I was 18 and living at home) so they passed on the message. Apparently my payment didn't go through so I got slapped with more interest and an even higher late fee. So I called about 5 people trying to get this second late fee removed while explaining why I thought the payment had gone through and could they cut me a break because I had proof that I TRIED to pay it? Basically, channel my inner B to get what I want and get it NOW. 

I didn't get it now. I didn't get it at all. I'm still out $35.00 because they REFUSED to remove the fee, no matter what I said or who I talked to.

REGARDLESS

I feel like I fought the good fight and stood my ground for once, not letting "the man" get me down or whatever. I was always the type of person to lie down, take it, and feel like I was a better person for it. It made me miserable, though. I'm still pissed and am determined to get my money back, even if I have to write a letter to the company directly. In the past I would have just said, eh...it's only $35.00. Let's see if I'm B enough to win a battle that I clearly have no reason to win. 

But that's why I'm so happy now. D has lifted me up through my submission and helped me see how strong I can be even while submitting. I was always so afraid of giving up my power to him because I felt I had so little of it in general. Giving him that power helped me find the strength to be more assertive and confident with who I am and what I want out of life. While he's grabbing me by the hair, I'm grabbing life by the balls.