Thank you, reader

Someone on reddit messaged me last week not to give up on the blog. Thank you, reader. It inspired us to kick it back into gear and get back on the right track with our dynamic and our lives.

D and I have really been struggling lately. The last few weeks we've felt kind of distant from each other. I hate it. We're both feeling pressure from school, but we also are dealing with a lot of family drama because of the wedding. I'm also having some problems at work. Everything seems awful and we just need a win. All of the stress has caused us both to act bitchy and fall back into old, unhealthy habits. We needed a kick in the ass. Acknowledging the depression we've kind of fallen into has inspired us to stop being lazy fucks and get our shit together.

We've been talking a lot lately and found that we both feel depressed when we have too much free time. We should be writing in the blog, working out, cleaning/orgnaizing, doing work, etc. But we find any excuse not to do those things and sit in front of the TV or go on reddit or play video games instead. It's awful. I don't want to waste our lives away, I want to LIVE them. Writing, cleaning, etc aren't activities that I would consider LIVING, but I think they make us more inspired to LIVE. Like when our house is clean, we can have friends over without feeling embarrassed. When we write often, we discover things about ourselves that help us reduce stress. It just feels like being a productive adult. It is hard work...which is why we've fallen off the wagon...but it's good. It makes us both feel alive. It makes us happy, so we need to get back to that.

We're leaving our hometown to go back to our home on Saturday. We've been here an entire week and I am ready to go home. We're going to get back on track with this DS life, our diet and exercise, and really try to stay on top of ourselves to keep it up. I'm taking D to a basketball game for his birthday on Sunday and we're going to see Wicked (it's coming to our town) the next week. Only a few more weeks of school and we're done! I'll be halfway through my master's degree :) It has flown by and I can only hope that the next one does, too. It's gonna be hard to get through the last push...so many finals...but when we're done, we're going to relax with our friends and have a merry ole time.

I'm just so happy to have such a wonderful man in my life. I love him so much and we make each other better...but we also can make each other worse. I want to focus more on the fact that we have the power to inspire one another and use it to better our lives for the both of us.